Monday, August 24, 2009

Hanging on

I did not notice the intricate web or its creator until I had driven a few blocks from my house. After spotting the spider grasping the home it wove on my side view mirror, I pushed down slightly harder on the accelerator with the intent of blowing away the insect and its sticky silk.

Upon stopping at a red light, I glanced over at the web expecting the spider to be long gone. But it wasn't. Some of the web had disappeared, but the eight-legged Anthropod remained. I sighed and thought for sure that he'd be a goner once I reached the highway.

At the next red light I stole another peek. The spider remained. And he was there at the following light as well, somewhat frantic and urgent in his weaving, but he held on.

It was at that third light that my attitude toward the creepy bug changed. I began rooting for the spider and wishing that he would make it until I pulled into the grocery store parking lot. I wanted the spider to hold firm. I wanted him to survive, and I wanted to see him place his spindly legs on safer ground.

I wanted that for him because I had been that place of barely hanging on. I am not there now, but the memories are not dull either. Circumstances of life have at times left me feeling as though there were just a few fragile strings standing between me and emotional and spiritual desolation.

Windblown. Disorientated. Battered. Frightened. Counted out. Unwanted. But not about to give up.

I have been there.

When I parked my car, I found a stick that enabled me to transfer the spider to the bark of a tree. And for probably the last time in my life, I related to a spider.

Because, I have been there that place of second chances.

Resting in the nook of peace. Embracing hope. Dancing in the light of restoration. Delighting in the rescue.

"Therefore, brothers, since we have confidence to enter the Most Holy Place by the blood of Jesus, by a new and living way opened for us through the curtain, that is, his body, and since we have a great priest over the house of God, let us draw near to God with a sincere heart in full assurance of faith, having our hearts sprinkled to cleanse us from a guilty conscience and having our bodies washed with pure water. Let us hold unswervingly to the hope we profess, for he who promised is faithful. And let us consider how we may spur one another on toward love and good deeds."

Hebrews 10:19-24 (New International Version)


Loretta said...

Whew. OK, once I made it past the spider thoughts that was indeed beautiful. I might, just maybe, identify with the spider. I'm still never rooting for one to stick to my car, but you managed to make the imagery beautiful. :)

sara said...

this is a beautiful post. And as usual, your words made me feel the imagery.

I have been there too!

but I would have smashed the spider.

Emily said...

Beautiful, beautiful post.

FaithBarista Bonnie said...

What a beautiful post, Angela.

The place of second chances. Yep, been there, done that. And I know will be there again.

Happy I stumbled here.

Jennifer Perkins said...

I loved this post.

3 Blessings said...

I love this post. I was rooting for the spider to make it too! Blessings to you and your family,

Muthering Heights said...

I really needed that tonight Angela. Thank you. :)

Joy Abbott @ Insane4Indo said...

Thanks for writing this Angela, It was such an encouragement to me over here in Indonesia. I was feeling overwhelmed with culture shock and it was an encouragement to get into the WORD!!

Christy said...

It's wonderful that you've taken a mundane event we've all experienced - a creepy spider perched nearby - and made it into a positive, life affirming story. Life affirming for you and for the spider, who was at your mercy and who you chose to rescue. Do we really have a God-given right to kill whatever creatures make us a little uncomfortable? You deserve high praise for taking the high road and letting that little 8 legged engineer keep living and doing what it was created to do. Thanks for an inspired post.

elizabeth embracing life said...

I love that you wrote this is the last time you will identify with a spider, so funny yet your words can certainly be me on any given day.

Shauna - Blah Blah Blog said...

Great post! I can totally relate too - never thought I would with a spider!

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